It‘s been a very long time since I was last on here. There are lots of reasons why (OK, I forgot about DT...
) but mostly it was because my mental health took a nosedive (Yay for anxiety!.. not.) after I found out I couldn‘t go to Uni (it was very messy and upsetting, I was suicidal for a while.)
I know you lovely people would‘ve been kind and supportive and awesome, but I felt like a failure. I was too ashamed to talk about what a mess I was, so I didn‘t. I have some of you on Facebook, and I am sure you noticed the depressing stuff I was posting at one point! :‘)
A lot has happened. My mum gave birth to a little
boy called George, who tragically died. It was just too early, and he had a heart defect.
I saw his birth. I‘m never gonna get over seeing his tiny body. Sorry, I know this must be horribly depressing to read, but I need to vent, and I know you‘re good listeners
It hasn‘t been all bad though. I got back with an old boyfriend recently, and he saved me from the misery just by being there for me: letting me talk and cry, encouraging me to eat, hugging me, laughing with me, taking me out, etc.
I love him!
How are you all?