Hi.
When i go outside or to a place where there's people like at the bar or at a fast food place(Mcdonalds), any place.
I sometimes think when people see me what there will think of me.
for example at a bar i don't care what people think of me after a couple drinks of alcohol in me and enjoy myself more.
But when i am sober, i sometimes worry what others think of me.
And Before last summer i thought i mentally prepared myself and got my confidence up alot.
In last summer i made a couple friends and the 1st time i met them and hung out in a group i felt really good about myself and did not care others think of me?
But after that time when i hang out with them it was not the the same as the 1st time because i kept worrying about what my friends think of me and felt insecure but at every other day it was good(did not care) and some days i felt insecure around my friends.
There was this one girl(Very shy) i liked and wanted to get close to her but i was too insecure around her.
But got on well with her sister a bit more because i did not feel insecure around her.
And i did not go to the swimming pool with my friends because you know what(above).
I keep telling myself that i won't care what people think of me and be happy being myself around people but that never works. With the family and my mom and dads friends and some others and being on my own i feel very secure and truly be myself.
I have been improving my confidence lately again like going up to the bar ordering drinks, Asking a lady in theatre for a program. other stuff after i feel really happy because that i did that.
Started doing more hobbies as well like playing pool, walking my dogs again.
And it feels good to be doing couple more hoobies and i am going to doing bike riding soon again.
In thinking terms most of time i think is mainly girls(getting a girlfriend) and college/friends and my future and my family. that all i think about.
I am 18 and have dyspraxia since i was 5 and i really need to have a ''don't care what people think of me'' attitude when going to places where there are people are around.
Can someone help me please? Sorry if its not well explained.
How to stop worrying about what others think of me?