by Bladen » Thu May 13, 2010 3:19 pm
Depression isn't something I'd probably label myself with but then again it is kinda true you don't know IF you're depressed or not.
my ex girlfriend was on anti depressents last summer andher out of touch views and desires are things which annoyed me. She was one day "oh I feel the world's against me" then next day happy as anything then next she thinks she's better than everything then the next she tosses me aside as her ego grows. Yeah not a pretty story but if it can do THAT to people I hope I don't have any form of depression.
When it comes to myself, my very meh, whatever, lack of passion, motivation, purpose and just wanting to sit round all day. I do have friends I suppose, I do have a future, things will probably get better for me I suppose but no matter what I think do, I'm plagued by negative memories, thoughts, desires of wanting what I try so hard to forget to move on, to return. I suppose I've been kinda down myself since the breakup, depressed? I dunno, who knows, I don't really care because the way I see things and do things is just, day by day, just blind faith and hope in the uncertain, that my efforts to cheer up, get on with it pay off.
Now, I've heard a lot of stories bar my own on depression and seen what its done to some people, it can be a serious, bad thingy. I just you know, hope my circumstances as well as everyone else's here clear up. I mean I got things to look forward to, I got a band going, I got college gigs, a future education before I'm left to the dogs of the big wide world to fend for myself. And so my conclusional bombshell thing is that I have no clue whatsoever what I'm talking about, what it means or anything. =p
You might know me one of these aliases:
Spyke, Shoden
if not, well.
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