Very glad I've found this site. I've always been different and felt really bad about myself, as I'm getting older it's becoming more apparent & I'm sticking out like a sore thumb, which is getting me quite down.
I've just stated uni & am struggling big style, nearly dropped out a number of times. Have finally persuaded them to test me for dyslexia, apparently this'll show up dyspraxia as well. Apparently I was diagnosed with DCD as a 3 year old, but it was decided not to stignatise me in school, so help I got stopped.
I'm currently mixed emotions regarding dyspraxia, I've just been on a high level sports coaching course(I'm a good coach, I'm good at putting things in simple terms & knowing what / how people learn - not so good at the sport
), but I stuck out on the course, not being able to process the info in the way it was given (very technical language & random), one of the instructors asked the others on the course to use plain english for me. I feel a total failure as I found the course very hard to access and feel that although I'm a good coach I can't progress any further as I'm at my limit because I can't access the info in these courses. I'll be able to process everything on the course, it'll just take me about a month, rather than everyone else in the 3 days.I rather embarassingly got upset on the course, after the second day one of the other students quizzed me about my lack of eye contact with the leader of the course, she then informed me she was a disability awareness adviser at a uni & that I had aspergus. This was bad enough but it turned out that this had been discussed by a number of people who were meant to be observing the coach not me. I just wanted to fit in, so when it came to my coaching being observed, I'd already had a lengthy cry with one of the instructors, worried about my personality beig picked apart again. How to embarass myself in formt of 6 of the uks leading coaches in my sport
I'll be honest, I've been in floods of tears for weeks (I know a visit to the doc to up the pills
). Yesterday I went out with the dogs for a walk up in the hills not kitted up, not knowing if I was going to be returning or not. A lot of reflection time, I'm still here. Looking at the forum has cheered me up alot, looking at others experiences I can see that although I'm not normal & guess I'll never be, I can still have a life & need to learn to laugh at my problems rather than get down about them.It's good to see people laughing at some of their problems rather than getting down about them and that people are able to get on with things
